whitewash

love starved

how dare i- to have gone insane. how dare i-
blame the doctors who broke my brain?
im overwhelmed by your ignorance;
i rarely leave the house; i rarely
leave this prison room; my hell
is your presentation. its of
my own making. yes,
its my life; my
madness,

and this is my story not yours.

you are breakin my spirit. you wish
you could. you dint know me then and youll
never know me. go on then, do me, my broken mind

if its true im an asshole-i am obviously not stupid
if im evil selfish and rude-to you its by no mistake

did i have to create your life to be so miserable?

how selfish am i.. lovestarved. resigned.
to think i am beyond you; have i not made
sense? lowly is the girl that youve tried on me
now you can wear me.. like a fat ladys dress

it seems deserving as to what ive become and
no one deserves to be me.

i know i cant stop you and
i cant help myself from screaming back.

there was a time i could do anything
without fear and it makes me feel sad to realise
i lost my freedom un a room i dont remember