insulin

trepidation again inside my heart
my empty room, my scattered thoughts
its nothing new to miss you here; indifference?
people are not replaceable. nor disposable.

insignificance.
shall i wear it for a hat?

chicken or egg
i cannot decide

pacifed by pencilscratch; you may be next
some call it invarience, but i have no feeling.
this is poison, hostile, in my head.

sleepy thing.

was it i who went dreaming
or did you really forget?

forget Wot?

i have nothing better to say out of Selfishness.
even as i have more than you– yours is bigger and
i stumble upon pipe dreams; anticipation into quicksand

erase my name
before im overwhelmed.

whence lovestarved.. . whilst unstruck

how about lunch, then. later we can–
i am silenced indeed: is it angst or drivel?

i will be somewhere
waiting for the worms

we can always do it tomorrow, this.
cos tomorrow never comes and
tonight i am alone. you cant feel me

i wont be fucking you